Posted by Blanquis in 
I used to wake up to someone’s touch, someone’s voice, the kids’ cry or the kids’ laughter. For the past week I have been waking up to me. I am learning to love myself.
My boys are with their dad for two weeks, and for some people it might not be that bad, yet for me it seems like an eternity. They were going to go out of town for those two weeks, but it did not work out as planned. I would be lying to you, if I told I was disappointed.
I dread coming home to an empty house, so I have stayed at work longer. Visiting family was becoming an everyday event, but I know I have to stop. I have to face the emptiness and silence of the house, but I have to face myself.
I need to look at myself in the mirror and love what I see. My loved ones are very supportive and encouraging. Having a great support has helped, but being comfortable by myself, and learning to love the silence, is my goal. Taking the steps to loving myself has been hard, but I know my boys will benefit from it.
I Started taking Zumba fitness classes twice a week, at a local fitness center. My friends are taking the same class, so it gives me chance to really laugh out loud and release some of the stress. The hardest thing was to acknowledge that I was worth that hour of “me” time.
A loved one, gave me some assignments to help with the learning process. This week’s assignment, was to read the book “Mastery” by George Leonard. Loved the book, it was as if that book was written especially for me. It made me see things differently, my favorite quote from the book is
” When you are climbing a mountain, be aware that the peak is ahead, but don’t keep looking up at it. Keep your eyes on the path. And when you reach the top of the mountain, as the Zen saying goes, keep on climbing. “
There are speed bumps on my path of learning to love myself, and I know there would be more to come. I sometimes glance up at the peak ahead, and I smile, for I see three handsome men smiling back with their arms wide open, loving what they see. They are my inspiration.
I love the book quote! You’ll get there, you are too driven not to. Just remember to keep looking straight ahead, not in the rearview mirror. No regrets
The guilt parents feel when they have me time cuts across generations and cultures. We all need me time, quality time to ourselves, when we are selfish and do things that pleases us.
Well, I don’t see it as selfish I think me time gives the push needed to keep giving to children and family.
So enjoy your me time and have fun, you deserve it, you earned it.
Very nice..
You are an extraordinary woman.
I was raised by a single mom (widow) and she’ll never know how much my 2 sisters and I worshiped her. She died before my 16th birthday. This note is not about me but I wanted to remind you that your sons will carry you in their hearts for eternity, they are blessed.
I went through a divorce 3 years ago and a very simple book helped me through it, “As You Think,” by James Allen. Written over a century ago, it is full of common sense wisdom about keeping good thoughts in trying situations.
After reading some of your entries here I felt compelled to comment and share these thoughts and feelings; maybe it’s helpful, maybe not. Just know that you are not alone.
Eric
P.S. Keep ‘blipping.’
All the way at the bottom….thought you might enjoy. You are not alone : )
Loving yourself is key, as is appreciating yourself, and you really need to do both.
I’ve found that when you reach that point of being comfortable in your own skin, you still love everything in your life, yet you’re completely fine all by yourself.
My son likes to say, “Love you as much as the universe.” And I’m thinking how blessed you must be, with three handsome boys, to be loved as much as three universes!