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“Three boys!”
I hear that every time I tell someone how many kids I have. I have to admit if I was looking in from the outside, I too would probably react the same way.
It’s funny really, looking back and thinking about everything I’ve been through and knowing the hard road up ahead. I’m an almost divorced mom of three energetic boys struggling to make sense of it all.
I had a plan you see, I had my life all planned out, I was in control. Yeah, man was I naive! I am trying to raise my three sons to become the type of men that only exist in our dreams.
What I want to teach them
Men that show no fear, yet not afraid to show compassion.
Men that are ambitious, without hurting anybody in the process.
Men who have standards, but are not too judgemental.
Men with positive thinking, but with realistic goals.
The list goes on and on, and it is very hard.
There are books, articles, and friends with advice to help me, but in the end mommy knows what’s best.
I thought that I was going to be able to show my little ones by example, I was going to show them that marriages do last, through my husband they were going to know how to treat a lady and how to make a marriage work.
I gave it my best, in the end,I did what was best and let it end. Divorce has not been finalized yet, but a new chapter begins.
I’m afraid, there I said it! Afraid of letting them down, of not being able to provide, of messing things up for them.
I’m afraid of failure. My boys keep me going, we have a long bumpy road ahead of us, but will walk it hand in hand together.
I will write about our many obstacles that are sure to come, but will definitely go head on and tackle them together.
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I love it!
beautiful. obviously written from the heart. keep up the good work.
I walk on a path adjacent to yours. Also navigating the stormy waters of divorce, raising 2 boys. Making THAT decision, walking through THAT fear, into THAT unknown, was the single most freeing act I have ever taken. “Faith is taking the first step even when you don’t see the whole staircase.” [MLK, Jr.]
I, like you, am committed and passionate about raising men who are enlightened beings. Consciously aware that they can co-create any positive vision with their pure intent. It is the source of my greatest joy. And as I teach them, I remind myself that the same holds true for me.
Remembering that my happiness is integral to theirs which then flows back to me.
Love & Light,
Keira